Changing the Past


Author: Kim MacKeller recondere@hotmail.com

Summary: This takes place the morning after Buffy and Angelus admitted their feeling for each other and made love. Read "Passion Bites" in order to understand this story. Also, Angelus never told Joyce that Buffy and him had sex and he never killed Jenny Calendar.

Rating: NC 17 Buffy/Angelus, blood play, good fun!!

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Disclaimer: The characters are not mine, they belong to Joss Whedon and the folks at Mutant Enemy.


Buffy was the first to wake up after a very surprising and passion filled night. She gazed up at Angelus and was amazed that he had in fact stayed the night. She couldn't believe that he was in love with her. Angel was one thing, but Angelus had such a black heart that it seemed impossible for him to even contemplate loving anything beyond his three feet of personal space. Buffy shook her head, she needed to be positive if this was going to work! Thank goodness her mother was out of town, she and Angelus needed to have a serious "Where is this going?" discussion before she said anything to her friends or Giles.

Buffy carefully untangled herself from her lover's possessive embrace, got up and put her robe on. She quietly made her way to the kitchen where she nursed a cup of coffee and a cheddar herb bagel. So engrossed in her thoughts, she was unaware of Angelus' presence until he kissed her neck. "Good morning lover. I missed you upstairs" Buffy tried to get her heart to slow down, but he always made her hot and wet.

"Angel," Buffy began hesitantly "we really need to talk and I want to get it over with now." Sensing the severity of her tone, Angel carefully considered where this conversation was going and the best way to approach it.

"Okay. I know we have a lot to talk about, but I was hoping we could forgo it for a couple of minutes until you, at the very least, say good morning!" Buffy smiled.

"Good morning!!!" Buffy wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him. Her tongue explored his teeth, gums and ridges, trying to memorize them in case she was never able to be like this with him again. Breathless, she moved away from him and sat down. His kisses always left her weak in the knees. "Angel, I think we have to decide where we are and what this is. I mean Giles is certainly not going to be happy and Xander, well Xander will most likely want to kill you. But if we have a plan or at least some kind of a road map!"

Angel looked completely confused. "Road map? Buffy could you speak in regular English! It's hard enough having this conversation without your 'isms!" Angel silently cursed himself for getting angry over nothing. "I'm sorry, it's just....I'm not Angel, I never can be. If you love me it has to be because you love ME, not because you are in love with what you had with Angel. I know what you two had was special, but I can't be him. I won't. I will give up a lot for you, but don't ask me to be Angel."

Buffy stared blankly at the floor, tears threatening to fall. "I know it must seem like I am trying to get back everything I have lost, but I DO know that you are Angelus. I am in love with you because I know that you will protect me, love me and be there for me no matter what. You are the only one who truly understands me and accepts me. It's just going to be hard because things are different now."

"Buffy I will do anything for you. Love you, protect you, please you, pleasure you, whatever it takes. But we can't be Angel and Buffy. We have to be Angelus and Buffy. I know that I don't have a soul and you have read all that I am capable of, but you have to know that I love you. In my days as a vampire I have never loved anyone or anything except the game. Playing with the minds of helpless girls has always been my passion. But I know the love you and Angel shared and I want you to love me that way. But you have to understand, I don't feel guilty for killing and I will not mourn the countless lives I have taken. However, for you, I will sacrifice the need to kill because it is the only way we can be together."

Buffy smiled knowing just how much he was giving up for her. "I think we need to start on a blank page. WE can't love each other because I want Angel back and you want the kind of love Angel and I shared. We both have to know that we love each other for now, not for the past."

"What are you saying, you don't want to be with me?" Fear laced the wave of nausea that crept up his stomach.

"No. What I am saying is that we have to start from the beginning. We have to get to know each other. This means dating...not sex." Angelus nearly fell over. Buffy laughed at his reaction. "If we are going to be together we have to know it's for real."

"Fine, fine, I'll pick you up tonight with flowers and candy and all that shit. I will be chivalrous and the perfect gentleman. Fuck, I won't even try to jump you in the car." Angelus knew for the next couple of months he'd be beating his meat like a 16 year old boy.

Buffy applied the last of her make up just as the door bell rang. She raced down the stairs to greet her "date". She opened the door to find Angel in leather pants a crisp white shirt with the top three buttons open and a leather jacket. In his hands were a dozen red roses and a heart shaped box of chocolates. Buffy smiled at his attempt to be good. "Hey, you're right on time! Just let me get my jacket."

Angelus knew Buffy wasn't going to make this easy on him. He regretted dressing so well because he could smell her obvious arousal. Not to mention her crimson dress that left little to be desired. Convinced that his pants were going to split at the seams, Angel tried to look anywhere but at Buffy. "Don't worry, we have plenty of time before our reservations." Angel made a point of telling Buffy to be ready an hour before their reservations because she was anything but punctual!

"So, where are we going? Will I like it? Have I been there before?" Buffy was so nervous, this was her first date with Angelus and she wanted everything to go perfectly. Her entire love life was on the line.

"Wow, for a first date you sure aren't shy! Couldn't you just be surprised? Patience is a virtue my l..um...first date/potential girlfriend!" Angelus had no idea how he was going to conceal his feelings for another couple of months. Right about now he was in complete envy of Angel's ability to hide his feelings from Buffy!

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They managed to get through a very awkward and silent meal, but in the car on the way back to Buffy's house all Hell broke loose! "Angelus, I don't think this is going to work. I can't do it, it's too hard. When we talked about it, it all seemed so simple and easy, like we could make it work. Now I know, I can never live like this." She stared at her hands trying desperately to avoid crying, again.

Angelus' heart broke right there as he realized that Buffy didn't love him. She was in love with Angel's memory. He was a fool to think she could love the demon. "Buffy this has to work! I love you, I can't live without you. I will do anything to keep you. I need you. I have never needed anyone or anything, but I need you. You mean more to me than anything, I'll die without you, Buffy, please, I love you."

Buffy looked up, confused. She climbed on his lap to straddle his leather covered thighs. "Angel, I meant that I couldn't start our relationship from scratch! I KNOW I love you now. I don't need to be courted for a year to know that you are my soul mate. I feel it now. We can't start all over because we are bound together no matter what. Angel or Angelus, I love you all the same. In fact I think I love it more when you are aggressive, possessive and jealous. Makes me wet!"

Angelus let out a huge sigh of relief as a sudden calm flooded his body. He thought he was so close to losing her. It scared him how much he needed her. What would he do when she died? "Well, I'll remember that from now on!" He took control by lifting Buffy into the back seat and spreading her thighs. In game face his face licked his way up her smooth thighs. His fangs ripped her thong off her body and sucked her juices off the cotton strip. He fully intended to ravish Buffy. HE had never made love to her, he'd fucked her into oblivion, but never really loved her. "Buffy, do you think you can hold on till we get back to my place? I mean, my old apartment."

Buffy looked rather disappointed but knew there had to be a plan. Angelus always had a plan. "Well, if you promise to make it up to me I could probably be convinced!" Angelus floored the gas pedal and ran three red lights and two stop signs before coming to a screeching halt outside his apartment door entrance. He swiftly picked Buffy up and carried her through the door and to the bed. Carefully depositing her in the centre of the bed he came beside her and proceeded to tenderly kiss her. His hands roaming the length of her smooth rib cage. His fingers found the tiny zipper and eased it down taking the rest of the dress with it. Buffy moaned as such tiny movements sent shivers down her spine. He threw her dress on the floor and turned to look at her. She was wearing a blood red lace bra that created such cleavage that Angelus grew even harder. He slowly removed the bra and dropped it on the floor. Her chest heaving, Buffy looked up to see Angel worshipping her with his eyes. She loved the way he looked at her, like she was the only woman he cared about. Buffy whispered "Come on, you know you want it!" Angelus growled at her. He did want it, but he was going to give her the night of her life. He was never gentle with women, not even Dru, but Buffy was going to be completely sated by dawn.

Angelus moved over Buffy and licked the sweat that was forming under her breasts. The sweet nectar that was Buffy never ceased to amaze him. He pinned her arms over her head and attached his mouth to her nipple. His intense sucking caused Buffy to grind her small hips into his stomach. The juices flowing down her legs rubbed off on his stomach and ribs. Buffy used her slayer strength to flip Angelus onto his back. Before he could say anything she leaned over and licked her juices off his stomach and said "Want a sample??" Angel could only nod at his pretty little goddess. She had grown up so much in the past few months, partly because of what he had done to her. He had forced her to grow up. Buffy leaned over and kissed him with all of her might. She didn't want to be anything less than erotic for Angelus. She could feel him tasting her and she was happy that he liked it. Their kiss left her a little dizzy, but eager to please, slid down his body and licked his throbbing cock.

"Buffy, no." Angelus dragged her up and pulled her into his embrace. He knew she was confused to say the least. "Tonight is for you. I have never made love to you and I want to show you how much you mean to me. Please. Tomorrow night you are in complete control I promise." He licked her lips and kneaded her breasts. He let his tongue trail down her taut abdomen and swirled around her belly button. He could smell her juices leaking out of her vagina. He didn't want her to come yet.

Buffy was confused when Angel got up. Her worried eyes followed him as he walked away from the bed. She was relieved when she realized that he was only getting undressed. Her eyes followed his unbelievably slow hands as they taunted her. Coming up on her knees she whispered in his ear "May I?" Looking in her beautiful green eyes, he was helpless to deny her anything.

"I'm yours. Please, do the honour." Buffy stood up, her mind frantically trying to come up with the best way to seduce her lover. She released the rest of the buttons of his shirt and torn it from his body and leaned down to run her hot tongue along his cool chest. She then stood on her toes and kissed him. She thrust her tongue into his mouth and ground her pelvis into his thighs in time with her tongue. Angelus was so close to coming that he nearly forgot the purpose of the evening. "Buffy, Buffy. Come on!" Buffy wasn't going to let him stop her. She needed to prove to him, herself that she was capable of being a decent lover.

"Angelus, you are mine!" She pushed him onto the bed and straddled his hips. "I am going to make you come harder than you ever have in your two hundred and fifty years of living!" Buffy ran her nails down his chest, hard, coming into contact with his nipples. Angelus growled his response. His hips were trying to get close to Buffy's thighs but she wasn't going to allow it. "Does my Angelus like it rough?" His low guttural moan told Buffy he did indeed like it rough. "Well you're with the Slayer, don't think I won't hurt you!" Angelus knew she was capable of defeating him, but he wasn't afraid, Buffy would never really hurt him. She once again raked her nails across his chest and drew blood. Angel could smell the blood and was all the more aroused because she intentionally drew it. He surprised when she leaned over to lick it off his chest before the wounds closed up. She kissed him roughly, letting him taste his blood in her mouth. He licked her tongue and teeth trying to get even more of it from her. Buffy broke the kiss off and gave Angel a devious smirk. She moved her body so both of her legs were on either side of his left leg. She began to ride his leg, so close to climaxing that very little pressure against her clit was needed. Angelus was completely aroused watching Buffy use his thigh to make herself come. Right before Buffy came she, mimicking Angel's vampiric actions, savagely bit into his neck. Angel howled in delight as he felt the pleasure/pain coursing through his veins. Angel felt Buffy leave the bed and go to her purse. He didn't see what she got, but instantly smelt her blood. He could smell a lot of it. Worried that she had hurt herself, he sat up instantly fully alarmed. Buffy walked over to the bed and saw his concerned face. She held up her hand to him and he saw that she had slashed her hand. "Don't worry, it's not deep enough to do any damage." She began to smear the blood all over her body. Angel watched and he amazingly got even harder than ever. "Come on lover, lick me clean!" Angel attacked her with his tongue, determined not to waste a drop of her precious blood. He sucked the blood off her erect nipples, lapped at the blood that was woven through the tendrils between her legs and licked the blood that Buffy had purposely dripped on her clit. Buffy's legs locked around Angel's head as she came again, this time on his face. Buffy pulled him back up and licked his face clean while simultaneously fondling his testicles.

As Buffy came down from her intense orgasm, Angel flipped her over and entered her slick hot core. As his speed increased, Buffy responded by thrusting her hips in time with his pelvis slapping against hers. "Come on baby, come with me!" Feeling himself close to his release, Angel grabbed Buffy's clit and rubbed it with the same rhythm his hips were moving at. Buffy screamed his name as she came. Clenching her muscles around him, Angel started to come as well. Buffy threw her arms around his neck and pulled him, now in game face, to her throat. Accepting the invitation, Angel sank his fangs into her neck. Her powerful blood flowing down his throat made him come again. Angel collapsed on Buffy completely spent and exhausted, but he then remembered the vast difference in weight between him and Buffy and carefully moved off of her. He pulled her into his arms, content to simply lie there with her.

"Was I right?" Buffy asked? Angel glanced down at her with an utterly confused look on his face. "Did you come harder than you ever have before or not??"

Angelus groaned. "Oh, I remember! Yeah baby, no one can make me come like you. You are my goddess, how can I come anyway but hard with you? I especially liked it when you bit me! He leaned over and nibbled on her ear lobe as she giggled.

"Well I just wanted you to know how much I love it when you bite me and so I bit you because I want you to like it too. I'm glad you liked it." Buffy took a breath and sat up in bed. "Tonight I had to prove that I was good enough for you. I know you have been with a lot of women, especially Drusilla and I know I can't compare because I am....less than experienced. But I am trying because I love you and I want to please you."

Angelus sat up and wrapped his arms around her. "Buffy how could you say that? You are the best I've ever had because I love you. The other women don't matter because I never felt anything for them that even comes close to what I feel for you." He knew what was bothering her - it was what he said to her after their first time and the fact that he repeatedly flaunted the fact that he fucked Drusilla constantly. He shook his head in dismay, he had hurt her so much. "Buffy I wish I could take back everything I said the morning after your birthday, but I can't. I wish I had never fucked Drusilla after I lost my soul, but I did. I can't change the past, but I can be here now. I was angry that the feelings Angel had for you didn't go away, I still loved you. So I tried to hurt you to make you leave my heart, but you are there forever. Now, as for you not being as good as all of those other girls, you are better. The biting and scratching and licking made me come harder than I ever have in my life. You are my soul mate Buffy, I belong totally to you. I live because I love you."

Buffy turned around and cupped his face in her hands. "Angelus, I love you more than anything in this world and the fact that I make you happy makes my heart skip a beat. If you ever left me, I don't know what I would do. Promise me you will always be with me, no matter what."

Angelus looked into Buffy's eyes and saw the pleading, the need and the love. "Buffy, I would never be anywhere but beside you. I am your until I die and forever after." The two lovers shared a passionate kiss and fell asleep in each other's embrace. Not knowing what would happen tomorrow, not caring because all that was necessary was their love.

 

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