Author: Kim MacKeller
Email: recondere@hotmail.com
Rating: NC 17 Buffy/Angelus
Summary: Set after "Passion Bites" and "Changing the Past". Buffy decides to tell the group about Angelus. Someone doesn't like it!
Disclaimer: None of these characters are mine. They belong to Joss Whedon and the lovely folks at Mutant Enemy. Feedback/Distribution: I'm a whore, I beg for feedback! I will probably say yes, but ask before you post my stories somewhere.
Buffy strolled into the library feeling as though she were going to the gas chamber. She surveyed the situation and decided that everyone was here and she could tell them the "exciting" news. "Hi Buffy, we were just researching Angel's patterns and habits." Willow, if anyone would be on Buffy's side. But now that she knows what Angelus is capable of, who knows.
"Buffy, trivia time, in 1824 did Angelus kill 248, 173 or 82 innocent people? No clue? Your special friend was responsible for a grand total of 248 deaths. Who else can say their ex is a mass murderer?" Xander's humour clearly showed his complete disgust for Angel, and unfortunately for make Buffy's relationship all the more difficult to explain.
"Guys, I think we need to talk. Giles, you too." Buffy stared at the floor before continuing. "I need to tell you all something and I want you to listen to me and not go squirelly until I am done." She took a breath and prepared herself for the inevitable fight. "I'm seeing Angelus, we love each other and I'm not going to break up with him. He as promised me he will not kill any humans any more and I believe him. Okay, speak."
"HOW CAN YOU SAY YOU LOVE THAT BASTARD, THAT MURDERER?? Buffy, are you too selfish to even see what he has done to people, to us? You wouldn't even care if he didn't stop killing, it's all about you isn't it?" Xander was pissed and out of control.
"Xander, I am not looking for your blessing, I'm asking for your support and friendship. Please, don't do this." Buffy pleaded for Xander to understand what she was saying.
"I refuse to associate with whores that fuck killers. If you are too desperate to feed the need between your legs to think about the innocent people in the world, I have nothing left to say to you." Xander ran out of the library without looking back.
Buffy broke down in tears as one of her best friends rejected her. "Willow, please try to understand. I can't lose you too."
"Buffy, I think this is going to take time, but if you believe that Angel, Angelus, is honestly going to stop killing people I have to support you. You are my best friend Buffy, even though I am not sure how this is going to work out I will always be here for you." Willow enveloped Buffy in a huge hug showing her all the support she needed.
"Buffy, I know what you are going through. When I started dating Xander my friends turned their backs on me, but they weren't real friends. As much as it pains me to say this, you guys are my closest friends. I will stick by you, even if my fucker boyfriend won't. I don't care, you need me." Cordelia joined Willow and Buffy in the group hug. Buffy was shocked at how great a friend Cordelia was being. Buffy then realized that all this time Giles hadn't said a word, this really worried her.
"Thanks guys, I really needed that puddle cuddle! But I really need to talk to Giles alone, please. I'll talk to you both tonight, you can come to my house after I patrol." Cordelia and Willow both looked at each other and walked out. "Okay Giles, give me the slayer responsibility speech. I need to talk to you about this. I have to have your approval on this, not just because you're my watcher, but because you are almost like my father. Please, I want you to be okay with this." Buffy looked in his eyes to find some hint of what he was feeling.
"Buffy I am not going to lie and say that I think this is a good idea, but I am not going to say that this is completely wrong either.
"From what I know of Angelus he has always been good to his word and for him to promise you to give up the kill is phenomenal. I believe that he truly loves you and that you love him. But now there are certain problems that did not exist with Angel. Despite Angelus' love for you, he feels nothing towards anyone else, this could be very dangerous if you two ever have a falling out. Buffy, you must understand that you are playing with fire. Angelus considers you HIS, this leaves no room for another man or a break up. You must think of this now before you move any further. If you decide that you still want to be with him I will support you because you are my slayer and I trust your instincts. But Buffy please, think about what I have said. This is not something to be taken lightly. I want you to read the watchers' profile on Angelus and come see me tomorrow morning." Giles handed her an ancient journal and walked back in his office.
Buffy did a very quick patrol that night and headed home. She called Willow and Cordelia and told them she had some heavy homework to deal with and their girl session had to be put off. Buffy settled herself in bed that night and began to read about her lover's past. She read of the blood, killing and torture. But she also read about the fierce possessiveness and obsessions. Only one was ever recorded, Drusilla. Buffy knew that she meant more to him than Drusilla ever did, what was he capable of if she ever moved on? Buffy had no idea what would happen to her if she rejected him. Would he let her die when she got old? Would he let her leave Sunnydale if she wanted to go to college? Somehow she felt the answer was no. It killed Buffy that she had such little faith in him, but she had no choice. Xander's words echoed in her head. Was she a selfish whore? Could she be responsible for everyone's, including Angelus', if she ever left him. This was getting so hard.
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Angelus sat in bed trying to concentrate on the book he was reading. He needed to pass the time somehow, waiting for Buffy to come was torture in itself. She had promised to be here. He could feel his anger burning in the pit of his stomach. He knew she had told everyone about him today. What had they said to her? Had they convinced her that he was a demon unworthy of her love? He needed to see her. He wouldn't lose her, not ever. Just then there was a knock at the door.
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Buffy couldn't sleep, her pillow was so wet from her tears that it was keeping her awake. She got up and went to the corner, sat down and huddled. She had a clear view of the moon. It was so beautiful, so clear. Then she couldn't see the moon any more, someone was blocking her view.
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Angelus swung the door open to meet a very nervous Willow on the other side. She seemed almost shocked when he opened the door so quickly. Angelus was disappointed to see that it wasn't Buffy but Willow. "Willow what are you doing here?" He was afraid something had happened to Buffy. Shit, he should have followed her while she patrolled.
"Um, well I came ...to talk to you about...you and...Buffy." Willow was fumbling for words as she entered his apartment. "She told us today about you two and I have to talk to you now. I am willing to trust Buffy when she says that you won't kill people, but I have to know that you won't hurt her. Promise me that you will always love her, because she loves you and is risking a lot by doing it!"
"Willow you always were a brave one. Yeah, I love her. I always have and always will. But Willow, I need to know what happened today. Buffy was supposed to come to see me after school, she never showed. What happened?" The sudden urgency in his voice was very reassuring to Willow, he really cared and she was once again his confidante.
"Well Xander blew up and called her a 'selfish whore' and swore he would never speak to her again. Cordy and I are going to support her. But Giles is the wild card. I think he is making her read the watcher's journals about you. You need to tell her about the past, make her understand that you won't hurt her, or us. Without that, she'll leave you." The finality of those words hit him like a ton of bricks, he couldn't lose her to his past.
"Willow, I really appreciate your coming to see me, but I really have to find Buffy now. I can't lose her, ever." Willow followed Angel out the door. He walked her home and set off to Buffy's house. As he passed by the cemetery he bumped into someone. He looked down, of all the people it had to be Xander. "Well another person I so need to meet with." He picked Xander up by the collar and threw him across the road. "Where the fuck do you get off calling Buffy a whore? Choose your words wisely, I will have no regrets about killing you right now."
"Do you really think that I am afraid of you? You can't kill me because you promised Buffy you wouldn't. As for the two of you, you're both crazy. She only cares about the sex and you, you just need a new virgin to play with. You don't care about her, you just want to play games with her. But I don't give a shit, you'll both kill each other in the end. You're both selfish and self absorbed." With that Angel threw another punch that knocked Xander unconscious.
"I only promised her I wouldn't kill you, not comatize you!" Angel stepped over Xander's body and proceeded to Buffy's house.
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Buffy looked up to see Angel staring down at her tear streaked face. His heart broke as he realized that Willow was right. After everything that had been said and read, she was uncertain, possibly afraid of him now. He tried to reach out to her but she just pushed herself even further into the corner. "Angel, I can't be with you tonight." Her chest heaved as she forced herself to admit it. She felt fresh tears slip down her cheeks and she buried her face in her knees. "I need to be alone, away from everyone, away from you."
So much had changed in the last 24 hours that Angel struggled to catch up. Was she going to leave him? "Buffy, I...why are you doing this? I love you, I want to help you. But you can't shut me out. I won't lose you!" Buffy looked up at him in shock.
"What if I do leave you, will you kill me? Kill everyone I know? Kill any man I ever date? What will you do?" The tears flowed freely as Buffy screamed at him.
He had never seen her quite so hysterical and it was because of him. "Buffy, I love you and if you did leave me for another man I probably would kill him, you and myself. But how did you react when I started fucking Drusilla? I seem to remember your calling her a fucking whore and you promised to tear her eyes out for fucking me. You are every bit as jealous and possessive of me as I am of you. But you think it's okay if you killed Dru because she's a vampire. For me it would be okay to kill any human that took you away from me, I love you too much to see you with anyone else."
Buffy had to agree that Dru was so dead for ever touching Angel, she actually wasn't done with that bitch. "Okay I see your point, but what would happen if one of us decided we didn't want to be together any more?"
"Buffy we are meant to be, they is no one else for me. Everyone has a soul mate, one person they are destined to be with. I have been around for more than two hundred years and you are the only thing I have ever loved. We are supposed to be together. Nothing can keep us apart." Angel pulled her into his arms and tried to soothe her heart. He knew she needed reassurance of his love.
"Promise me you'll never leave me. That you'll always protect me. No matter what." Buffy looked in his eyes. She saw her answer.
"Buffy, I follow you every night, I watch you sleep all night and I kill the demons that you never have to battle because I love you and because I have to protect you. You are all I have!"
Buffy reached up and kissed Angel with all of the love she was feeling at that moment. She pulled him up and pushed him down on the bed. She clicked the button that turned on the stereo and went back to the bed. She straddled his hips and began to move in time with the music. She slowly took off her night shirt to revel her pert breasts swaying to the music. She braced her hands on either side of Angel's shoulders and lowered her breasts to his mouth. Just as he took one in his mouth she got off the bed and removed her underwear. Angel sighed as he always did when she was naked. Her body was so perfect, no one's compared, and he'd seen a lot of them. She came back to the bed with three scarves. "Lover you are totally at my mercy now." Buffy tied both of his arms to her bed posts and covered his eyes with the third one. Angel couldn't see anything but he knew he could break free of his bonds. But he wasn't going to spoil her fun. Buffy knew he could break the scarves but she wanted to torment him first. She leaned back over him, dangling her breasts over his mouth. She allowed him to suckle on one of her erect nipples, they were begging for attention. As Angel established a pattern in his sucking, Buffy ground her hips into his pelvis in time with the movements of his tongue. She could feel he was enjoying this and was determined drive him wild. Buffy could feel the tension building, she needed a release. She smiled as she came up with an idea. Buffy pulled her breasts out of his grasp. He moaned his disappointment as she left him. Buffy licked his cheek and whispered, "Lover, I KNOW you love to watch, but do you like to listen too?" Angel could only nod his response. He had no idea what his little Slayer was up to, but he was sure that it was gonna keep him hard.
Buffy positioned herself so she was straddling his upper chest, just above his nipples. She began to play with her nipples, pinching and squeezing the just as Angel had been doing. She moaned softly as her sensitive nerves responded to her actions. She let her fingers trail down her body in soft butterfly touches that created goose bumps along her ribs cage. Her fingers found their way to her throbbing clit that needed to be satisfied. She put one hand on Angel's stomach which caused her to arch her back forcing her vagina even closer to Angel's face. The smell of her juices leaking past her labia was intoxicating. With the other hand Buffy slowly rubbed her clit with her thumb while penetrating herself with three of her fingers. Her rhythm was established when she got her fingers, hips and thumb working together in a frenzied pace. She could feel her body aching for the explosion, she knew this was going to be the best orgasm she ever gave herself because she was doing it for Angelus. Angelus could smell Buffy getting so close to the edge, he wanted to slam into her and feel her juices smeared over his cold dick, but he would wait. What Buffy was doing was so intimate and arousing for both of them. He would let her finish her show before he started his own. Buffy's body began to tremble as her orgasm took control of her body. The rush went through her body and her world exploded. Buffy held her breath trying to savor the moment. Buffy collapsed on top of Angelus as she struggled to slow her heart and catch her breath. After a couple of minutes she had enough energy to sit up. Buffy could feel her slick juices still wet on her hand. She wasn't finished with her game. "Did you like that lover?" She heard Angel mumble his yes. "Wanna taste how much I liked it?"
"Hell yes!!" Angelus' erection was growing very painful, he would take Buffy's cum in any way he could get it. Her torture was so sweet. It made him so proud that she could bring him to his knees with such little effort. Buffy ran her fingers across Angelus' lips and then slid them in his mouth. She could her him purr as he sucked her cum off her hand. He still couldn't see, but that was okay. He didn't need to see Buffy to know that she was his beautiful goddess, he didn't need to see her to know he loved her. "You taste so sweet baby. I need to be in you, NOW!" Buffy could see him straining against his leather pants. She gave in, but only a little. She took the rest of his clothes off till he was nude.
"I can't let you come yet!! You always want to go to sleep after you come!! I want to play" Buffy leaned over and licked his mouth. He opened his mouth waiting for her to enter. Her hot tongue explored his cold mouth by running it along the ridges at the top and the soft skin at the floor of his mouth. Buffy once again pulled away. She sat on top of Angelus' face ready for her next orgasm. "Come on baby, make me come hard. I like it better when you do it to me!" Angelus felt her hot juices streaming down his face. His tongue quickly darted out of his mouth to catch her juice, he never wasted a drop of her nectar. His tongue then probed her vagina as she began to writhe on top of him. He was going to enjoy his opportunity to inflict his erotic torment on his lover. She was going to pay for making him wait so long to touch her. His tongue licked the sides of her vaginal walls at a slow, lazy pace. He wasn't to going to give into to the fast pace Buffy craved. As Buffy began to thrust in his face, he quickly pulled his tongue out of her vagina. "Now, now lover, patience is a virtue. You'll just have to wait until I want you to come." He laughed at her obvious frustration. He felt her starting to get off of him, he knew she planned on finishing the job on her own. Angelus, with great ease, broke his restraints and pinned Buffy to the bed. She gasped as she realized that she should have borrowed Giles' chains and chained him down. "Come on lover, you know I hate it when you don't play with me. I like teasing you as much as you like torturing me."
"Well, when you put it that way, do what you will with me!" Angelus growled in delight and once again moved between her legs. She moaned as his tongue found her clit. He sucked so hard Buffy thought she would die right there! She raked her nails over his back and screamed in delight. Buffy could swear she saw the stars as she came all over Angelus' face. It took all of her slayer strength to reverse the positions and pin Angel to the bed. "You had your fun, but you know what it's time for? My fun!!!" Buffy slid her lithe form down until she was faced with Angel's raging hard on. It was perfect! She took his cold cock into her hot mouth and surprised him by deep throating him. She had been practicing and now she was ready for the real thing! She wanted him to climax soon so Buffy increased the pressure of her sucking as well as the pace. Her tongue was furiously circling the head of his penis. She could feel him about to come, then Buffy made her move. She sat up and said, "Angelus do you want to know one of the reasons why I love you so much?"
"Baby I would love to know, but right now I really need to be inside you, please!!!" Angelus was disgusted by the pleading voice he was giving Buffy, but he needed her so bad it hurt.
"Come on, I promise you'll love it !" Angel rolled his eyes and nodded. Buffy bent down again and began sucking till he came. Angel spilled his cum into Buffy's mouth and was a little confused when she didn't swallow. She crawled up the bed and kissed Angel, letting his cum flow into his mouth. As their tongues explored each other, Angelus' cum coated their mouths. "I want to share everything with you. I want you to know how much I love the taste of you." Angel was completely shocked by how much Buffy had done tonight, she was his sexual goddess!!
"Buffy, tonight has been the most amazing night! I love you so much and the fact that you went to all the trouble of giving me the sweetest torture possible makes me love you all the more. But now I get to finish the night off." Angel flipped Buffy over and slammed into her. His thrusts were long, hard and fast, just the way Buffy liked it. He wanted her to come hard and soon. Just being in Buffy was enough to make him climax, her tight walls always forced him to climax within the first three minutes. Tonight they would come together. Buffy clenched her pc muscles around his cock as it slammed into her at their own frenzied pace. Buffy began to shake as her orgasm took hold of her body. Angelus thrust faster to come with her. Buffy felt him close to his own climax and unconsciously bared her neck to him. Angelus sunk his fangs into Buffy's neck and came as her warm blood flowed into his mouth. Angel collapsed on Buffy in sheer exhaustion. He absently licked her neck as she stroked his back. Looking at the clock it said 4:00, he got up closed the curtains and settled once again with his lover. "I love you" was all that Angel said as Buffy drifted off to sleep. He would stay awake for a few more hours watching his love sleep, chasing away the demons that threatened to enter her dreams. He was her protector, now and forever.
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